What do you do when you have no words to pray? When you feel powerless? When you can't even think of the words to describe what you're feeling? Has this past month been like that for you? Every time I turn on the TV there's another awful story. I keep finding myself at a loss for words. Well, at least that's what I thought until I sat down to write this blog.
Have you ever felt like that? Have you ever had a loss that's too hard to confront? Or a stressful situation that feels too overwhelming to even wrap your head around the situation? Does this prevent you from praying?
This past month's terror attacks coupled with different situations that are weighing heavy on my heart are leaving me feeling helpless and frustrated. As I sit down to write, I realize why. I take so much comfort in prayer but now that I'm honest with myself, I think some of that comfort is the process of putting words to the situation and knowing what to pray for. As long as I can figure everything out for God and package it all with a nice and neat explanation, I'm okay. I'm acting like I need to figure it all out for God! I'm laughing at myself as I write this because it sounds so funny to say out loud.
Obviously, I don't need to figure it all out for God! And obviously my prayers don't have to have the best words or even any words. This is a great reminder for me.
I can sit in silence.
I can sit with no requests.
I can sit with an open heart and ask God to hold whatever's heavy in there.
God knows everything in my heart and everything in your heart. We don't have to have the right words to pray or know what to ask. We can simply sit with an open heart. We can allow ourselves to get lost in the surrender and trust that God is all powerful and all loving and all merciful. I know this. You know this. We just need these quiet moments to really feel it.
I hope you're able to find a quiet moment to remember it as well. Sit in silence. Open your heart. Allow God to nurture and hold whatever's inside.